It's finals time, it's the holidays, i'm supposed to be dilligent with my diet and blood sugar so I can get surgery soon.
All i want to do is sleep. It's not that I could care less, it all stays there in my mind and I feel more guilty as each day goes by. I think I may be slipping into a major depressive episode - I've slep a lot this weekend. Maybe I am in one - just not sleeping 24/7.
I miss people - it's the holidays and I miss my boys, my dad, and my friend Barb.
The girls' dad must've quit his job - we've stopped getting child support, and we're kind of dependant on it. I've missed school a couple times last week because I didn't have gas money, and I had put a deposite down for all of us to go to a play in Milwaukee with the drama club, and we couldn't go and i've chumped out on my obligations. And what about Christmas pressents for the kids? I should have expected this from him and feel foolish that I didn't.
I'm just filled with so much sadness, and don't know where to put it. :(
I just wanna go home, and I don't even know what that means.